I noticed the other day, yesterday, if you really have to know a man and his son. I’ve noticed a lot of father and son combination and why this one stuck out at this particular time I can’t say why other than they were exceptional. I could tell this little man wanted to be like his dad OR that his dad was raising him to be like himself. The dad have a camo shirt on with a normal baseball hat. The kid had a red shirt on with a camo hat. The way they interacted I knew he was a decent dad to the kid. The kid even helped load the groceries into the cart which I thought was pretty cool. So I followed them out of the store and followed their car home to their house… Nah, just kidding. I saw the dad high five the little kid on the way out though and could tell they were so proud of each other.
This got me to thinking about my son. This made me think about the image I’m raising my son in and I took a look at what hes turning out to be and I wonder how much I am influencing him to turn out like me. I know the little man loves me and I love the little man to death and beyond but the way he is turning out isn’t the way I thought. I love him and hes smart but hes lazy, and addicted to video games. Its probably the way I was when I was a teen. I used to lve going outside and being outside and being around animals. Then we got a Nintendo and I started playing video games and around that same time-ish I started watching the after school carton lineup. Looking back I think I was the kid on the floor with the bag of chips watching tv until dinner(or supper) was ready. After eating I forget what my routine was. Ah, the days before the internet….
I’m still figuring out this fatherhood thing and I have to say, playing it by ear sucks. They don’t have a manual but I want to do my kid right. I used to want to exploit his gifts but then I went through a phase of he will turn out to be his own person anyway. Hes a good little man but hes not up to par with other kids on a lot of levels. Like I just learned the other day that hes scared of the monkey bars. This honestly bothers me. It really does. I want to make him do them so that he can learn that he can do them but I can’t force him. I need to work with him. I honestly don’t know what to do in this situation though, I really don’t….